Happy New Year

Happy New Year.
It's just another day. I find that I am less thrilled about the holidays. I thought up some resolutions for 2012. I normally do not have a resolution.
In the next five months, I should be done with college. They are trying to convince me to continue. Be a part of the growing population of college debt? NO. I do not know how many times I have to tell them no. They are ruining my life. They still do not get it.
Next resolution is to get rid of pieces of shit like Joel. He is being an asshole. I have been called "little girl" for the last time. Little girls do not own homes and have a management position. I do not like being told that I need to understand "my place." What place is that anyway? I reminded him who has the upper hand the other night.
That is pretty much it. I am thinking of selling the house after school. I hope someone buys it because I want to move. I'm sick of smelling cat piss when I do not have any cats.

Living Paycheck to Paycheck?

Each time I recieve money, I always have some kind of plan. Perhaps this means I am living from paycheck to paycheck. I went through an evaluation, I am where I need to be...my associates do not take me seriously. I am not confident enough, so I am pretty much saying what I can whenever. That way, people know I exist on the team. Christmas was fun. I drove to see everyone. I got some money from my father. I think I will use some to pay for the car battery and save the rest for some fun or clothing. I used some money from last year to renew my stickers on the car. I got some new snow boots. If I have a nice lumpsum left, I want more ink. We shall see. The Acer finally died. There was about 41% battery life left over and would not turn on with just the cord. No, it's not the cord. It's the motherboard. May as well get something new. The Acer was less than two years old. Now, I have a Toshiba. I would use the Compaq, but some idiot placed a bunch of crap on it and now it moves slow. Never again. I finally received my pension information. I don't think it is high enough to retire with in the future. I already moved my car loan onto the Chase account. I want to use the pension to get rid of Chase. Need to get ready for the new large bill. I spent time looking for a scholarship and received nothing but phone calls from more universities. No, I am almost 35 and still single and no children. Please, fuck off. The university in Georgia was kind enough to send me even more links for scholarships. They were pretty cool. Maybe, if they have a degree for the entertainment field and the scholarships work I may consider. I am heading to mothers for New Years. I don't know if I have to work the next day. I'll see what I can work out.

Reaching Out

I do not normally do this. I have turned my nose up at hand outs, unless it is used clothing or when I am going through a difficult time. This winter break, more crap hit the fan. In case you did not know the story, I was someone who could be sold on just about anything. Just like this house. I was working at a job that paid me nearly $16 an hour without a degree. Then I lost that job and now I make way less. I like my job, the team is great and so is the boss person. I do not make enough. Because I was naive, Mabel convinced me that going to University of Phoenix would better my life. She called and called. I caved in because I wasn't doing anything with my life. I thought it would be one of those educations that lasted for about six months. As time went on, more classes appeared. I panicked because I thought this was temporary and I cannot afford any more bills than what I had. Only at this time, I was getting more information. It has been many years since I have been to school, I didn't know what to ask in the beginnning. I never paid for public school, I didn't know what to ask. Alana told me that I was in this for two years. I was worried because, again, I cannot afford more bills. I asked if I was getting billed because they had told me earlier that I did not have to worry. I was under the false impression that I was covered with the FASFA and I had already expressed numerous times that I do not want to pay for anything. Lies, lies, and more lies. Nobody gave me any straight answers. So, college is almost over. Four more classes and five more months. I am on break and trying to find a scholarship because Alan said that I would be worthy of them. I follow the link to find that I have a balance of about $20,000 when I thought it would be half as much. I am absolutely livid. I e-mail Alana telling her that the website does not make sense. I get a call back from both Alana and Jennifer. They help me find my lender. I am pissed because they told me all along that I do not have to worry about anything. I do have to worry, I did not want or need another bill. Jennifer spent her time over talking me and arguing. She claimed that they gave me all the details and by law they have to. I informed her of the expository on television, she interrupts me again saying they took that to court and won. Really? Well, I already am aware of their bad behaviour. Must I remind them that they harrassed me on the phone until I finally gave in? I told them I do not want to hear from them again and hung up. Jennifer called and I refused to answer, I really do not feel like talking to these two. I sent an email explaining that I was not told anything, do not call unless they can give me a legit link for help, and that I am sick of her talking over me. Jennifer asked me if I would still like to attend. I am offended by that because I do not want a $20,000 bill and no degree. It pissed me off because I have been attending for the past three years. (Yep, was two years but turned into three because people do not know how to leave me the hell alone in the house.)Alana sent me an e-mail explaining that the last four classes are about $5,000. I asked her if that was in addition to the bill. She gave me a subtle e-mail stating to watch my account. I want to have someone else, really, they are both fired. I need help finding something legit for a scholarship. I am not going to be able to pay for any of this. It may give me some more money come tax season. This loan is way too much. If University of Phoenix did not care about me an my situation, I do not think that there are any scholarships that are going to care. It is just like when I moved to Boise. Boise did not pay attention to me because I did not take any of their classes previously. It was my Junior year, how could I? I got a phone call from a transitional person from UoP. As far as furthering my education? I am seriously not going to further my education. I cannot go out and meet people going to school. What is the point of college if I cannot begin a life? Meh, bad men are trying to seduce me. It doesn't make a difference obviously. The point is, people already have a life going to college. Most people are fresh out of high school, happily married or divorced, and everyone has a family or a business. Me? I'm a single girl that never wanted an education. I'm just going where ever life takes me and I am more comfortable that way. By the way, does anyone else disagree with this new blogger set up?

Gendercide

I wish I had enough money so I could adopt a girl from India. They have a link for unique housing and they have had an overwhelming response.

If Unwanted, Why Have Them?

MUMBAI, India – More than 200 Indian girls whose names mean "unwanted" in Hindi have chosen new names for a fresh start in life.
A central Indian district held a renaming ceremony Saturday that it hopes will give the girls new dignity and help fight widespread gender discrimination that gives India a skewed gender ratio, with far more boys than girls.

The 285 girls -- wearing their best outfits with barrettes, braids and bows in their hair -- lined up to receive certificates with their new names along with small flower bouquets from Satara district officials in Maharashtra state.

In shedding names like "Nakusa" or "Nakushi," which mean "unwanted" in Hindi, some girls chose to name themselves after Bollywood stars such as "Aishwarya" or Hindu goddesses like "Savitri." Some just wanted traditional names with happier meanings, such as "Vaishali," or "prosperous, beautiful and good."

"Now in school, my classmates and friends will be calling me this new name, and that makes me very happy," said a 15-year-old girl who had been named Nakusa by a grandfather disappointed by her birth. She chose the new name "Ashmita," which means "very tough" or "rock hard" in Hindi.

The plight of girls in India came to a focus after this year's census showed the nation's sex ratio had dropped over the past decade from 927 girls for every 1,000 boys under the age of 6 to 914.

Maharashtra state's ratio is well below that, with just 883 girls for every 1,000 boys -- down from 913 a decade ago. In the district of Satara, it is even lower, at 881.

Such ratios are the result of abortions of female fetuses, or just sheer neglect leading to a higher death rate among girls. The problem is so serious in India that hospitals are legally banned from revealing the gender of an unborn fetus in order to prevent sex-selective abortions, though evidence suggests the information gets out.

Part of the reason Indians favor sons is the enormous expense of marrying off girls. Families often go into debt arranging marriages and paying for elaborate dowries. A boy, on the other hand, will one day bring home a bride and dowry. Hindu custom also dictates that only sons can light their parents' funeral pyres.

Over the years, and again now, efforts have been made to fight the discrimination.

"Nakusa is a very negative name as far as female discrimination is concerned," said Satara district health officer Dr. Bhagwan Pawar, who came up with the idea for the renaming ceremony.

Other incentives, announced by federal or state governments every few years, include free meals and free education to encourage people to take care of their girls, and even cash bonuses for families with girls who graduate from high school.

Activists say the name "unwanted," which is widely given to girls across India, gives them the feeling they are worthless and a burden.

"When the child thinks about it, you know, 'My mom, my dad, and all my relatives and society call me unwanted,' she will feel very bad and depressed," said Sudha Kankaria of the organization Save the Girl Child. But giving these girls new names is only the beginning, she said.

"We have to take care of the girls, their education and even financial and social security, or again the cycle is going to repeat," she said.


Read more: http://www.foxnews.com/world/2011/10/22/hundreds-indian-girls-named-unwanted-choose-new-names/#ixzz1hC3krxvh

Wish List

It is that time of year. I don't have a way to give presents. I don't expect presents. There are a couple of items I would like and some movies with Colin Farrell.


This looks really cool. Then again, it is from an infomercial. This would come in handy for the countless tree branches hovering over my lawn.

I have a radio, but it doesn't work anymore. I would like to have something that will play CD's and obsolete objects such as records and tapes.

This would be nice for the house. I don't know how old mine is, but it causes my gas bill to skyrocket. I haven't seen how much they are. I found one at Habitat for Humanity for a couple hundred bucks. Yes, I like recycled house parts.
Now, I have to go. I have a final project to finish and then it is winter break time!

winter break is coming

Sad Keanu