I'm Just A Nerd

My job hired me because of my navigational skills. I went to the website and found where to apply and here I am. I am aware of all of these random websites. My boyfriend was like, "Do you just go online and look for this stuff?" No, I just see it.
When I look at like say, msn.com, I glance at everything on the page. I can say, "Oh, the president gets his dog in April. " Or I notice a murder or maybe an ancient relic that was found. It's stuff that strikes my interest. Things that I find quirky. It's what I do. I write, I look for ideas and clues. I research a ton of different things therefore my eyes are peeled for the needle in the haystack.
Not to mention that I have been online since I moved to Boise here in 1995. My boyfriend at the time, was a hacker. I know all kinds of tricks. Do I do them? No, I think it is mean to fry some one's hard earned piece of equipment. It's wrong. I would hate it if someone did it to me.
I would hear him and his nerd buddy talk about viruses that they would make. They had viruses that were already known about and had weapons to fight back and send the virus back to whoever sent it. He once even found a way to get a free keyboard. He used the serial number and called the company. They sent a new one and didn't ask for the defective piece of equipment. I just hope by now they are asking for things back. His nerd buddy worked for Micron and that company always threw stuff away and they would always salvage whatever was in the dumpster. This was ions ago.
I have more profiles than anyone would care to know about. I know all kinds of different websites. I am on myspace because of Liz. I am on mocospace because of Paul. Frank has a couple of websites one for 24 hour pet watch and mydogspace I found because I couldn't find petcentric.
I started out with this bbs board called Idaho Interactive. This was back in the day when Internet hogged the phone line. You paid by the minute for the Internet thing. Back in this stage of my life, Andrew also played Warcraft. It was cheesy back then with old school graphics. They didn't care. There were funny sounds effects and they blew stuff up. Then I got into the games and started to play Meridian 59. That game sucked up years of my life.
I also got into ICQ. I was also introduced to Yahoo right after. Then as time went by, other land lines were added to the house. Everyone would be online in the whole house. Eventually I was in the world of Diablo. I got into this place called egroups before Yahoo took them over and now Yahoo has groups that is full of bots.
Later I would have my own computer. I had dial up. I have two email addresses through Yahoo. Weirdos were sending perverted messages to my Nefertiti profile. I tried to delete that and could not.
There are many things that either forgot about me or I tried to delete. ICQ had lost my profile. I tried to delete myyearbook but all of a sudden I had secret admirers.
I upgraded to my own laptop. After years of hand me down desktops I got something of my own. I like my computer. The keyboard feels great and sounds cool. It is small. It can do many things that I need it to. The bad thing about it, some parts are popping out and it will reset when I tell it to shut down.
When I got my laptop, I discovered what wireless was. There is a built in wireless detection thing. It was really great. All I have to do is turn on my computer and I don't have to have it make a phone call.
By now, I have hundreds of things that I do online. For my job I have about 4 different websites I can log into at home. I have a few personal profiles that are my social networks. Online I read the news and even get to play an activist. I don't use Yahoo as much as I used to. I pay bills online and manage my accounts to find out how I can make my experience better and more affordable. I shop online and get recipes. I have 2 blogs and 2 sites I submit writing to. I have places where I watch videos and post videos. I recently joined twitter so I can stalk others while they stalk me.
I even go to random websites like stupid.com or I still visit that creepy website. I referred my mom to this site before. It's Simeons cave of wonders and there is this card trick where it ALWAYS knows which card you choose. Check it out http://www.simeonmagic.com/
Well, I gotta go. Have things to do. My room is also stinky because Frank just farted. I also just noticed that President Obama is talking about the war in Iraq right now.

Moon Sparkle :)

I have a thing for perfume. I like anything that smells really good like anyone else. I remember this scent that my Aunt Carla had when I was little. I don't know if it was her make up or some perfume. I got this make up thing from her once and it had that really cool smell.
For the longest time I didn't really care what I smelled like. I didn't have a collection of lotions or anything. Then one Mother's Day before Grandma Maughan died, dad was shopping for a present for her at Bon Marche. Or whatever they were at the time before they were Macy's.
I found this blue star and I sniffed it. It reminded me of cookies and banana bread. It was Angel. It has sandalwood, vanilla, citrus, and patchouli. I brought it to dad's attention and he liked it so he bought it for grandma. It vanished when she died. It's such a cool product. It is pretty expensive, smells good, and it is also refillable. See? It's cool.
Around this time, I kind of figured out dad's skill at shopping. I asked him to get me some as a present. He bought Justin and himself the men's version. For me? He got distracted by the weirdos behind the counter. He got me some kind of a perfume sampler and one of them smelled like bad B.O.
Then finally he bought me some. I have been a happy camper since. I was pretty happy and had the same bottle since and I haven't used it much. I don't want to run out or lose it. I had to fight for that perfume.
Then mom gave me some of those mini mini perfume things. One was Alien (which is made by the same people who make Angel) and this stuff called Moon Sparkle. I was more attached to the Moon Sparkle. It smells like apples. It is really really yummy.
Dad wanted to know what I wanted for Christmas. I immediately stated I wanted Moon Sparkle. I have seen it at Sephoria and Walmart. Of course, he spoke with the red necks and they either didn't know how to find it or never even heard of it. He spoke with the perfume people and they said it was only a seasonal brand and that they did not have it in stock.
Really? I could still find it at Wally World. I think it is totally hard to miss. It has a retro look and it is a name brand (I think) Escada. I kept on looking at it and always told myself that one day I will be able to buy it.
Last night, I got in an argument with Paul. He was being dumb and put everything completely out of proportion. It was over a survey that I did and he misconstrued it. It made me angry. I nearly booted his butt out of my life. I get that enough.
I got home today. There was a note sitting on my shelf and there was Moon Sparkle holding the note. I am pretty much the girl of his dreams. I am still slightly annoyed. He is off the hook.

Hey Emmett

Idaho bill would benefit nuke fallout victims
http://www.idahostatesman.com/localnews/story/678827.html

Idaho Reps. Mike Simpson and Walt Minnick are renewing an effort to extend federal compensation to victims of nuclear fallout from Cold War weapons testing.

Simpson, a Republican, and Minnick, a Democrat, are joined by Rep. Jim Matheson, D-Utah, in pressing for a hearing in the House Judiciary Committee. Simpson and Matheson made a similar request in the last Congress, but were unsuccessful.

In a letter to Chairman John Conyers, D-Mich., and the ranking Republican, Lamar Smith of Texas, the congressmen ask that the committee consider expanding the Radiation Exposure Compensation Act (RECA) to include areas in Idaho and Utah that were hard-hit by radiation. Sen. Mike Crapo, R-Idaho, has introduced legislation in the Senate in past sessions, but no hearings have been held.

Payments of $50,000 are available to people who have suffered any of 19 cancers covered by RECA. To qualify, they must have lived in one of 21 counties in Nevada, Utah and Arizona during Nevada bomb tests between 1951 and 1962. Almost 13,000 downwinders have received $645 million since 1990.

Idaho is not covered. Some Utah counties are included, but several high-radiation counties are not. Four Idaho counties ranked in the top five in the nation for having the highest per capita thyroid dosage of radiation - Gem, Blaine, Custer and Lemhi. The other 40 Idaho counties all had higher thyroid dosage than some RECA-covered counties.

More boring than normal

Did anyone watch the Oscars last night? I did. It had been a couple years. The whole thing seemed more bland and awkward.
I am a huge Hugh Jackman fan. However, I am getting a little tired of him being a host. He is a funny guy. I watched him on the Tony's and he was great. It just seems like the same thing over again.
I was bored with all the oldies on there. I felt like I was watching the same thing again. I got to see all the garbage that opened that I missed.
There were a ton of cartoons that were released that I really didn't care for. The only ones I liked were Wall E and that one about the rat that cooks.
I can't quite remember the movies that had been released that I did enjoy. The Dark Knight was one that I watched multiple times. Other movies I enjoyed from 2008 are My Best Friends Girlfriend and Appaloosa. I just got done watching Blindness. It was almost what I was expecting but a little odd. It was an orgy of blind chaos that is all I have to say.
The ones I would like to see currently are Australia, The Duchess, Zack and Miri Make a Porno, Confessions of A Shopaholic, Bangkok Dangerous, City of Ember, and probably a long list of others. I have about 6 free rentals for Red Box. I also get a free movie every Monday. I should be able to catch up on movie watching here pretty soon. I work a lot so I don't have the time to go to the theater. There is still discount Tuesday, now I have Tuesdays off...hmmm.
I am feeling a little better. I still want to ring some one's neck. I will never meet the retard so I can't do anything about it, can I?
My little babies are starting to grow. :) Paul was surprised that my plants are already growing. We only put them in the little dirt things on Friday and there are little sprouts. Gonna need to move the corn here pretty soon.
The Cat Stop seems to be working. Frank stays out of the garden. Better that way anyway, shards of glass are still being found. There will be more to come. For as many as I want I think I would end up spending $200 to keep the cats out of the yard. I would consider it a savings. Why? I won't have to spend the money renting traps, I won't have to spend money on gas taking them to the animal shelter, and I won't have to spend the money on having my car detailed.

Have you ever felt like...

An animal that has pissed in the carpet a week ago and now getting your nose rubbed into it? I feel like that today.
Remember, you must remain positive because things are looking better. You are still getting a warning. Why would I be a nervous wreck? Because, I got beat down when I wasn't given a chance in hell to prove myself worthy. Now, I get threatened again? Honestly.
The cat stop seems to be making cats the least of my worries. I am a bit more relaxed. I am not too thrilled about finding someone else to live here. I wouldn't look right now, but after April, I am the only one employed. At least, I have some company and a little more money to be able to survive on.
I started to work on my Bear River screenplay again. I decided to add more characters and more elements to build the story with. Some people make writing simple with having as few things as possible. I have to have several things going on until it's a big messy confusing knot. Then everyone dies. Yep, everybody dies in my stories. We are all going to die, there is no way around it. You come in living but you can't get out alive. That's the way I roll.
I am feeling a little motivated. If you don't mind, I'm going to go now.

Goofy Kids

My Animals


These are my two goofy kids. We start with Logan's favorite hiding spot. It is also his favorite place to antagonize Frank. Then we have Logan giving T-Mobile a try. I don't think he liked the service. I went ahead and bought the Cat Stop today. I don't know how well it works. I know it works on Frank.

Wish List

Paul has been looking at Craig's List. He keeps on finding all of this cool free stuff. He has found fences, exercise equipment (which I need), and stuff for scrap to sell. How are we going to do this, Paul? I ask. We don't have a truck. You don't put your cart before the horse.
I think he already figured this out when we were putting the compost box into dad's truck. I would think he would let us borrow it. I don't feel like paying for gas for that thing. Paul's back is doing better by the way.
I am working on a wish list and putting things together while I am at it. Yesterday I spent a nice chunk of change on getting a greenhouse for the veggies this summer. I also got some stuff to rot roots of stumps that are left and also got some powder for the compost. I think we are going to have a couple of cool gardens. We are going to have different tomatoes, corn, squash, beans (that are purple), lettuce, jalapenos. There are more things that I will get. I want carrots, cucumbers, radishes, grapes and strawberries. I also got some flowers. I am totally going to have a cool flower bed. I have Chinese lanterns, tequila sunrise, and some purple bell things. I would like to have some morning glory but I would have to get something for it to climb on.
There are many things that we need to get done. My main concern is getting grounding on the wiring and take care of the cross wire in the kitchen. I also need to get the roof done above my room. His concern is the level of the house but I am not worried about it right now. We are also thinking of some way to get some light in the backyard.
We are trying to sell things right now. I have some windows that were left behind that I have no intention on using. Someone wants the smaller ones so far. I am also trying to sell my undercarriage glow. I would think that people would want it. It glows purple and that is a hard color to find. I know why they would not because that kind of stuff is illegal in these parts.
With all of the things that I would like done I have compiled a wish list. Every day seems to be like Christmas since I moved in. I keep on opening new things up and putting them together. I recently got a deep fryer. That thing has been used nonstop. So, this is the stuff I would like to get soon.

Priority #1: Get rid of those damn cats. This I found at Fred Meyer and they want $65 for it. I am sure I will find it cheaper somewhere else. This is a motion detection device that makes a high pitch noise that humans can't hear. Hey, if you know if this works or not let me know before I buy it. :) Maybe I will look on epinions.com.

My car needs a hitch.

Even though my car is an SUV, it is a mini SUV. I am not complaining, my car suits me just fine. I don't know how I got by without it. I can put very few things inside. I can fit two dog crates or two big boxes. The things we keep looking at and wanting, we will need a trailer to haul it in.

I hate the entry way to my attic. It is very small and in a corner in the hallway. Dad had said that we need to make it bigger. That would be nice. Then I saw this wish list episode on DIY and they were showing this attic ladder that will fit in any size space. I want this. I have purchased a couple of ladders and I still can't get up in the attic. This would be a nice thing in the house.

A fence in the front yard would make my house look more attractive. Granted, it is an attractive house but there is plenty of ghettoness to it. This would also say, keep off my lawn. If the little brats break it, the neighbors will get an ear full.

I have decided I wanted one of these after I was moving dirt from one side of the yard to the other. I have a really huge yard. Before we try to move more dirt around, we might want to get a wheelbarrow.

We are going to need to store food during the winter. My objective right now is to spend as less time at the store as possible. It is also getting harder to shop. It's like the apocalypse. All of the store shelves are bare. We have also considered getting a pig or a cow. I don't believe there is enough room. There isn't even enough time to take care of a cow.

There are other things going on. Leslie has put her notice in. She found herself a nice studio to rent. Which is kind of nice that she will be renting something of her own without running into others. It also is a little sad because I have to go looking for another room mate. I am debating about it. It was just me and Tonya for about 6 months and I did fine.

The one thing to be nervous about is Dan. I just found out he lost his job. He has an income and he is going to school. How would I know if he will be able to pay rent? He recently got a DUI. He is going through a gruesome divorce. I am sure there will be some kind of battle about child support. I don't know if he will be needing to move again soon.

When that happens, I hope that Paul has a job by then. I am just fine if it is me and someone else. When Leslie moves out, I just might get another room mate just in case. That way if Dan ends up going I will feel confident enough to say it's okay.

A Chorus Line

Odd

I had this dream last night that I was at this bar. There were these glass cabinets above a counter that had these wooden borders around each one. The cabinets had a collection of trinkets that Rocky had collected. They were Harley trinkets and photos. I was given a task to move them from each of the cabinets down to the one at the end. I think they were making room for others to remember in there.

Weird Thought of the Day

I wish that we were the type of beings that lives to experience every decade as a young person. I would have liked to see what it was like to be a young woman from like maybe the roaring 20's or maybe the 50's.

Pussy Control

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I am talking about cats. Last night I wrote an email to city hall about what to do about making an ordinance on cats. I got an email first thing this morning from the person I emailed.
She got more info form me on how to contact me directly and my address. She emailed me back and told me that she would have an ordinance officer get in touch with me. The officer contacted me later on today. As far as I know, there was another complaint about cats not too long ago. She asked me what animal control said and I told her that they want me to catch the cats with a trap that I would have to rent from Tates Rents. Why should I have the diseased animals in my car by the way??
She asked about cats in heat. There have been as a matter of fact. These cats are carrying who knows what, peeing on my house, and pooping all over the yard and automobiles. She certainly would understand my concern. She also asked if it was one neighbor. As far as I know it is two of my neighbors. She told me that I should gather up all my info and address city council. She gave me a number for city council.
I have photos taken of what the cats have been doing. I am thinking of getting pictures of the cats. They look terrible. It was also suggested to go around the neighborhood asking if anyone is having issues with the cats. You know what I am thinking, I was thinking of making an online petition. I will ask Diane about if that is something I can do.
The other matter at hand that needs to be taken care of are the neighbors in general. I haven't seen dogs running loose often. I haven't seen the dog walker swing by neither. The kids however, need to be taught manners. They have absolutely no respect for others.
I can understand in a way. I used to trespass across the field to get to "the willows". I always played in the empty lot next door. I liked going in that one yard with the pond in the front and watch the tadpoles and eat the raspberries. I would go to the park back in the day. Rarely I would play in the middle of the road. If I did play in the road my ass would get blistered.
When I am away, the kids ride their bikes through my yard. Sometimes when I come home there is some random toy in my yard. I already told the kids it will come to an end.
Last night I heard the kid next door talking to Paul. He always speaks to someone, I thought nothing of it. I just heard today that the kid jumped over my fence in the back to go get his ball. This has to stop. The kid jumps in the wrong spot and he will end up landing in the compost box we got sitting out back. I certainly don't need that to be happening. I really am not in the mood to come home to some kid that fell in my yard and breaking their leg. He has no business back there. I would rather they knock on the door and ask for me to get the ball. Otherwise stay the hell out.

Sexual Predators

I woke up feeling like I need to find a way to strike a nerve. I guess I have been fed up with Idaho striking a nerve with me. I sent an email to City Hall this morning. I want an ordinance on cats. There is a limit on dogs you can have but not cats.
I have been reading articles in the Statesman and reading responses to these articles on their website. I don't read the newspaper very often unless it is something that catches my interest. I don't subscribe due to the fact that there are conservative and ignorant points of view in it. I read the Boise Weekly because it is edgy and artsy.
So, anyways, there have been many articles about older people and younger people having sex. There was a story about a child molester found dead in jail recently. Some lady had the book thrown at her for having sex with a 14 year old boy. Another teacher at Borah High is in trouble for having sex with students. Has anyone noticed that this is an ongoing issue with that school? There was a same situation when I was attending. Some teacher had impregnated some girls.
It is something that is nationwide. What is up people? Many many years, we have been sickened by it and us citizens have made this quite clear. It still happens. Why does it still happen? Many reasons come into play for a topic that is so sensitive.
One reason is that some liar comes by and ruins a resolution for everyone else. This minor is an individual that will go into a bar and put a bar at risk for being shut down. These are the skanky teenagers that go onto Myspace and flirt with anything that walks and scream that the 50 year old man pursued them. The road goes both ways. You see all of these reports about old men being wolves and going after your teen. In most cases, it's the teen going after the older individual. People do lie about their age. Some people don't lie and get into a relationship of some sort anyway. Both parties should get in trouble with the law not just the older person. I'm not saying that they are forced into the situation. The older party has the opportunity to tell the kid no. The minor has an opportunity to use their conscience and not do it either. We all know it is against the law, use your noggin.
Some of it has something to do with the law and how the law is enforced. Some places it is okay to get married to a child. It sometimes has something to do with the personality of the town. Take Emmett for example, if there is a child that is molested or if there is domestic violence nothing is done about it. According to Idaho, the victim instigated it.
I don't know what century they are stuck in. Everything has to be so secretive. Something happens it really didn't. It seems as though it is a foreign country. I don't know if it has something to do with the way family responds to what happens to their family members. I know if I mention something of the sort to my father he gets uneasy and ignores it. It would be something that is ignored. It continues. It's a sensitive topic so nobody says anything and it continues. Nothing is done because there is nowhere to go to speak to someone. The men's shelter downtown, it used to be for anyone who was homeless. Women don't have anywhere to go. Shelters for pregnant teenagers are always at risk for being shut down. I can't remember if one was closed or not. You have the Women's and Child Alliance. You can only go if you are going to move in and it is a house otherwise they ignore you.
I think the perp should consider themselves lucky. They may get time in jail but is there anything done for the victim? No, it isn't taken into consideration about what is does to some one's mentality. The violator is lucky to be behind concrete walls.
Another thing is the list of people that are sexual deviants. Some people are rightfully on record. Then there are some that got a ticket for streaking and they are stuck on the list. Their risky behaviour makes them a sexual predator. Right. You are also a predator if you are not even in your twenties yet and are still with someone from high school.
It seems to me that there is confusion. Sometimes something is not done at all. Sometimes something is done when no action needed to be taken. In most cases there was action taken.

Happy V-Day

Things are looking up

Well, I finally accomplished one goal. For now. I have everything just so in the beginning and then some fool comes along and messes it up. I know, just one. Then more are on the way. I get one or two fools an hour.
Hopefully, I can make things better. If I don't, I am screwed. I saw my paycheck last night, maybe that can be extra motivation.
Frank still has his owie and he still licks it. He is getting a bath today, he is kind of stinky. I have a ton of chores to run this morning.
Background noise for the morning: The Transporter.

Destroy! Destroy! Destroy You!!

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I am having one of those weeks. I think I am going to do something great. The idea is quickly diminished. I am going insane. I want to break shit.
I want to break random items that didn't do anything to me. I have no stress relief. I need to color something. I don't want to do word search. I don't think it matters what I do.
People have hopes for me. I am afraid I will be a big disappointment. The only thing I can do right now is bitch and ball my eyes out. I have no clue what I was doing before that is so different now. I feel like I am singing the same old song all over again.

Poor Frank

Frank has been walking a little funny. Inside he will walk on all fours. He gingerly places down one of his front paws. Outside, he will not walk out into the grass nor will he walk on all fours.
I thought maybe he broke his foot. He can move it though. I felt worried about what might be going on with his foot. Maybe his sweater was in the way.
Paul was playing with Frank while he was in his dog bed. He started to look real close at his paw and got my attention. From the other side of the room I saw this light spot on the bottom of his paw. I got more worried because I can't afford to take any animals to the vet right now.
I don't know what he did. I doubt it was from when he was stepped on. I was thinking maybe it was from when he claws at the door of his crate when he gets happy to see me. I never heard him yip though. Paul said that maybe it was from when Frank is in the back yard. Frank gets a little over excited when he knows the neighbors dog is near. He throws dirt everywhere with all of his paws.
We tried to think of an idea to cover the wound. He likes to lick his paws. It is normal for a schnauzer to do because he is keeping his paws clean. I had some socks I got for him because I was trying to find something that will make him stop licking his legs. Then we grabbed some neosporin (have no idea how to spell it nor does spellcheck on this thing), a band aid, and some tape.
Paul wrapped the bandage around Frank's paw and I rubbed his belly. The sock wouldn't stay on but the bandage did. Poor guy keeps getting hurt. :(

Stressed Spelled Backwards Is Desserts

I am having one of those times where I am really ditsy. I have been trying to relax. I can't seem to. I always have something to do. Got to get Franks license renewed. Got to clean stuff. Got to make sure my taxes are together. This that and the other thing.
Yesterday, I was really absent minded. I thought someone had not given me a number when she did. I took my lunch early and I didn't mean to. I got really worried. My mind is on the fritz.
Frank has been acting a little weird. He hasn't been wanting to move very much. I thought the boys were rough housing again. Come to find out, Frank got in the way of Dan and Dan stepped on his paw. Poor baby. I wish I had a doggy pin killer. He is sleeping right now in his bed. I feel bad that he is in pain.
I have been going to bed a little earlier. I go to work a little bit later in the day. I got a copy of Mr. Brooks and didn't get to watch it all. It's a good movie. I am watching it right now to see what I missed. I fell asleep while watching it.

Bad Karma = Owies

My guy has been doing a ton of work around here. He takes care of the animals, fixes stuff, and searches for the next best thing in the working world. He has been moving random things in.
He brought a lazer pointer over. I kept on looking at the cat toys. I never knew how fun teasing the cat with a little red light. I light up his paws. I don't know what he thinks he will do with it if he caught it. He seems to think he can sniff it. The red light will go under his legs and he makes a shocked little prr noise. The light will vanish under the door and Logan will look behind it like it was hiding back there. Weirdo animal.
The day before yesterday, we started to get material for the compound box. We went to dad's and he didn't have enough for something big enough. We want to make enough dirt to raise the yard on the left side. We all run to Home Depot. A couple of sheets of wood were chosen, cut horribly by an idiot, and then made into a box.
It is a huge heavy box. Paul kept on moving the heavy stuff. He moved the sheets of wood. He moved the box in and out of the truck.
I left the next day for work. I told him to be careful. Next thing you know, he is sending me a message that he hurt his back. Today he is feeling worse. He is talking about going to the doctor and probably cannot afford to go. I try to offer aspirin and my heating pad. He declines. Right now, I think he is getting something from Dan.
Dan hurt himself on the job today and had to go get stitches. He got a boo boo when doing something with a ladder. People are always getting hurt. It's craziness.
Right now, I am tired. I have been tired since the end of my shift. I had to get up earlier in the day. Get up early to take a shower and leave early for work. So, I am happy about my trade. I think getting up this early was about to kill me. Hopefully, I get better within the month. I feel like nothing is looking up for me. I'm trying though. Maybe I should stop trying so hard.

I WON I WON I WON SHOWTIME ROCKS!!

Many many months ago, I entered into a contest for Showtime. There was some kind of sweepstakes going on. I think I had a chance to win money, a tv, a camcorder, or a copy of Californication. I thought nothing of it. I was rooting for a copy of Californication. Crossing my fingers, please please please.
I don't remember when this was. I believe this was around the same time season two was about to begin. It has been a little while. I kind of forgot about it. I kept on looking at the copies for sale. I wanted to buy it so bad. I also saw that season two of The Tudors is already out. Season three starts in April!!! I have heard it may be the last. :(
Yesterday, I got a message on my phone. It started off with a few digits and it went on about a package to be delivered that required someone to be present. I thought someone in the house had given my number and expected me to be home.
Today, I ran a ton of errands. I totally forgot about the message that I got. I was heading out the door to go grocery shopping and someone knocked on my door. What the hell? I open the door and the UPS guy was nearly shoving this little brown package into my hand. I look at the box and I thought it was going to have someone else's name on it. It had my name on it. I didn't order anything.
I thought my job had sent me the package. Paul said it might be something cool. I was feeling a little skeptical. Maybe it was a boxing glove sitting on a spring ready to pop me in the chin.
I open the package a little bit. I saw a little bit of the cover of Californication. I won! Holy crap! I won! I never win anything. I also got a copy of Dexter. So, I'm going to get off the computer and watch one of my all time favorite shows.

Back to the usual?

It's been a long gruesome two days. I am a little tense. I always expect people to be the same way. I know they are not. Sometimes they are too exhausted to be mad by the time they speak to me. Some are asking for more. Some are amped and want to argue. I get like that. I never ask for anything.
Maybe I am. You see, I feel be littled. I am a little thankful that some people have got my back. However, I had lost money by going through this transition. The grass is looking greener on the other side. Even though I went through something that was a refresher, it wasn't refreshing enough. Mainly, I have to think about things that do work and that don't work. I have to look for things that are not there. I have to put up with people that talk to me like I am a child.
I am finding it quite upsetting. I know what I am doing yet there are many puzzles that I have to take apart. Things I have to unscramble that some other person had the courage to mess up.
I have people jumping in and telling me answers. They are great answers. However, I feel like they are the wrong ones. I look at something and it will not sit right with me. Then I get guided down a path that seems wrong. I said that I feel like the people I am working with are making me feel belittled.
I don't know what makes me feel like I am lost. I know my way around. I have no idea how to respond when someone talks to me like I don't know what I am doing. It hurts my feelings. I was only gone for a few months and nothing had really changed. I take something for someone else to look at and someone else butts in when I really don't feel like speaking to them yet. I know they mean well but I think they are invading my territory. I am feeling frustrated, flustered, deflated.
Today, I got a phone call from some rent to own centers. I call the guy back and Paul and put me down as a reference. He hasn't really known me very long at all. The guy was asking me how trustworthy he was. Well, he has been taking care of my house. How long have I known him. Well, he was dating my room mate before I kicked her out.
Movie for the night: Rosemary's Baby.

Superbore Sunday

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I have been gone a little bit. I have been busy. Not really. I got my training done. Hurray!
So, I went out and celebrated. Had a little bit of fun last night. Went and got crabs from Joe's Crab Shack. Watched people dance to YMCA and humiliate a lady by making her dance a hula dance while they sang happy birthday to her. Pretty funny. I wore a bib as I cracked away at the crab legs.
Then we went downtown Boise. Hung out at China Blue. Then we went from bar to bar looking for somewhere to chill. The Pear was jam packed. I was sad. We went to The Lush. That place is the crappiest place to go to. They charge $7 for a bottled water. The waitresses ignore me every single time. I guess they don't depend on tips. I glared the guy behind the bar down. Paul and I had sex on the beach. A good drink there for once. Last drink I had there was a dirty martini and it was crap. I think they use garlic instead of olive juice.
I spent my first day on my new team for the week. I will be trading shifts here pretty soon. I liked the shift I was given but then I saw what they were doing to the shifts this round. They are going to drive some people nutty I am sure. I feel beat up mentally. They drug me down to another position for no apparent reason then retrained me and people think I am new to the whole thing. I felt discouraged about being questioned about things that are according to the rules. Of course, the new boss person does not know.
Right now, we watch the Puppy Bowl. I was a little eager to watch the Super Bowl. Unfortunately, I had to work. Oh well, I'm not a sports fanatic anyway. I am having more fun watching Frank respond to the squeaky toys on the television.
Other things I have been up to? I have been looking for Prince videos on YouTube. Due to the lawsuit, there are many that do not have sound. I am sure they would be great if I could hear them. Apparently, he lost though. There are some random ones with sound again. It's kind of like finding the bits and pieces to Tel el Armana. I found this one where he covers a Joni Mitchell song. It was a pretty good cover. I loved it. I also started to look some other stuff up. During training we got on the topic of Prince. Someone said that Kevin Smith did a documentary on him which will never see the light of day. I found a thing where Kevin was probably talking to college students about this footage. It goes on for about 40 minutes. Very interesting interview. Prince is a weirdo and I love him even more. Maybe he can play me like a marionette one day.